Loving the snow

As the snow falls and stick to the ground and cover the onces black street to a white pillow. As the news Post schools are close and all the kids get to sleep in. Waking up to a nice breakfast and some hot coco with marshmellows. As the snow falls and the kids watch from the window. Parents say go out and play as the rush up stair to get warm. Once out there free is everywhere heaven on earth with angels in the snow, walking , talking snowman and the cold winter wonderland. Snow ball fights are started and seeing who can make the bigs fort . As the day draws to and end and the sun begin to set as mother call their  childern with hot coco ready and stories to tell. A fun full day of snow. I love my snow days

Hurt

Words cant explain how I feel right now. My heart was ripped out of my chest and step on and shot. My soul was ripped out of my body.  I feel like a empty vestus of nothingness. I just dont understand what I do to feel this way. I try soo hard not to let it get to me but it just seem to circle around my mind all day. It was my birthday I shouldnt have to feel this way. I laugh to hide my pain and to deepen my sorrow and dorment my hurt. I though the bond we had was way deeper then the outter veiws. I love him and i know sometimes it seem lke I dont but I do. I guess its on of those lesson while learned. As my tears drop they form a river

Its my bday

Im soo happy i have noo idea what im going to do ... but  I just have this feeling that day today is going to be a drag ctfu. I really do need some more friedns ctfu. But Im 22 years old with a cute babyface, who cant not love this face. Ok im feeling myself a lil too much

2011

So its finally 2011, Cuz lord knows that 2010 was based around pain , sorrow and drama. But not all 2010 was bad. But I really looking forward to this year. 2011 is going to bring new places and new friendship and maybe even love for some of us. But the changes that going to happen to me. Im not sick of being the nice one and the one that people walk all other of. THAT SHITS GOING TO CHANGE NOW!!!! and im sick of letting simple minded people get to me and get under my skin. EWWW I am a optimistic person and i want my friends to be as well. I dont want that neagtive ora around me. I like to smile and I'm going to smile until the day i bite the dust.  Maybe loss a lil weight  and get in shape for the Cali boyz. Soo this year is not going to bring dreams and hopes becuz they were alrd set and stone before this year. This year Im  focusing on a NEW ME!!!! and I think im going to love it

Soul mates

A soul mate,
It is said that a soulmate is the other half God has created for you
That we were all built in two but its up to us to find them.
Someone that share the same mind and heart as you
Where our lungs breath as one and not as four
 A soul is said to be the principle of life, feeling, thought
So a Soul mate is the principle of two lives becoming one and  were feeling are shared and understood.
Where a thought is just a thought and words are spoke without opening their mouths.
Where the twink in each other eyes shine as bright as the sun in the morning dew.
Where the flames burns internally and never dies.
A love so strong not even millons of people can pull us a part.
Where their eyes are fixated on each other and not the world
Where there ears are use to listen to each other.
When ones back is against the wall the  other is there to push them forward.
I thank God for creating me a Soul mate.
At this moment I dont know who he is and where hes at but I kno hes out there waiting  just as I am wait for him.
God know when the right timing is.  He created someone out there for everyone regardless of you sexuailty orientations, color, race or ethics background. He wants everyone to feel that joy and passion hes created for all of us. The feeling that we are not a lone and theres someone out there for everyone. Just close your ears and listen to your heart it will never stir you wrong. Well you might have your false hopes thats because you really wasnt listening.

But a Soul mates sound soo great I cant wait to share my life with the one I love unconditionally forever until death do us part under the eyes of GOD