A Letter to Katherine

Dear Grandmom,

Now that your gone, I can sleep at night knowing your in a better place. Knowing that your  No longer suffering. Your mind is just as young and youthful as I remember. Grandmom the summer I spent with you Im not going to lie where the worse I cried everyday wanting to go home, but you wouldnt let us , but I never regret the time we spent together. Being in the country wasnt my twist but you loved evey single bit of it. The wide open spaces and the miles and miles of land that surround us was your zen. The food that you cook I remember the smell like it was yesterday fried apples, beacon and cheese eggs, I'm getting hungry thinking about it. The songs you use to sing us in the morning "Good morning mr.dippy dip your hair look shorter than mine, Good morning Mr.Dippy dip you sure are looking fine." I though it was the cheesey song but it made your day singing it to us. At night we would watch a hour of t.v and you were very pointy about what we watch "Thats to Worldly".The way you would float across the floor with smooth dance move and the laugh that made everyone else laugh (I can hear it in my head now).Every sunday at the hall, saturday going  door to door.  BUt when it was time to leave I use to soo glad went it was time for me to go but I knew I would miss you like crazy and that it would be long that I would see you again. You kiss us on th cheeks and hug and aswe  pull out the gate you would wave and say see ya next summer. At that time I was pleading not to go back but it was going in one ear and out the other from your son. I remember that time we went to florida with Aunt Michelle  and the boys and it rained and rained. I was soo excited that I though I had the chance to go to Disney World. But it was miscommucation talking about you dont like walking around the part and you boldly stood up and said I never said that.My dreams were crush but being with you made it memberable. Another summer later would be the last I seen you at your best minus the few visits and your mind started fading. You didnt remember who I was or my dad and it hurted us to see you like that. We was everbody else but who we really were. I knew time was going to draw near but I never knew you would last a lot longer than you did that was God on yourside. Now your gone my mind and your mind is at easy. I know the family is greving but I know we are going to be ok . Tell Grandpop Winslow I said Hey and my brother Randy, Uncle Peewee, Aunt beebee  my nephew and any of the other clan  Watch other them grandmom cuz i know they need a strong women like you leading them. But for now im going to wait until the day i see you and again kiss you on the cheek and say grandmom another summer again with you

Fox News

Oh How I cant go a morning with out watching my FOX NEWS, they know the right things to say , and away to get to your heart. They have a good time doing what they. They put a smile on your face and the music they play went they go on break some how fits my moood. Sheinelle, Mike, Jean  Shawnette and the rest I love you guys .and they love to eat YAY FOX NEWS

My Valentine

Like the words of the song "My funny Valentine" She puts a smile on my face. She knows me in and out. She has this walk that makes the room goes crazy. A smile that makes you smile. A giggle that makes the whole world laughs. She loves me and I love her. I know she doesnt say but she do have her ways to by experssing it. My Valentine sings with prettys voice and dances like and angle flowing on air. My Valentines is the center of attention everybody wants her, But shes all mine. She the love of my life the joy in my world, the realize why i do the things I do the things i do. We have so much and command. My Valentine stands at 45 inchs born on Jan 1,2010. No great love is the one who loves you the most my Neice Makayla

I turn to you

I turn to you went times our rough and just didnt seem right
I turn to you went I just couldn’t sleep at night
I turn to you cuz I knew you’ll were the one to make everything right.
I turn to you went I have no one else to turn to.
But now that you’re gone and you’re out my life
You gave me life went you where around me and death went you were gone.
Who can I turn to?
You were my everything you were my sunshine in the rain.
The glue that handle me together
You were the period at the end of every sentence.
I turned to you went worse was here
Went I though no one else cared
Only you was there
You were my breath and the air that I breathe.
Now that you’re gone I found myself gasping harder search for that oxygen to fill my lungs as I exhale with a shi
My Life in is a broken glass 7 years off bad luck.
And you where my luck charm.
As I wait by the phone hoping you will one day call.
It just seem like impossible wish that will never come true
And I turned to you.
It hard for me to move on and it hard for me to just let go
But you were my everything

Now who Can I turn to now?

The Dream

The Dream

Darkness all around
Something is out there.
Something’s grabbing me
Just let me GO!!!!!!
Where am I?
What is this place?
Why is it soo lonely?
And why is it soo cold?
I’m lost and I want to be found.
I’m yelling but I’m not being heard.
I’m seeing but I’m not being seen.
I’m just alone and I’m scared.
Is there anyone out there?!!!!
I don’t like this feeling.
And I hate this place.
I’m drift away but away from what.
I’m hearing the sound of a fading heart beat.
As it is slowly comes to a stop.
I see the lonely drifter as he stops and tells me to wake up.
My eyes are open and I’m in my bed where I’m warm and loved.

A place like that should never be Dreamt of.

without friends

My friends are very important to me, and sometime I dont know where I will be without them. Lost in the cold lone world on my own. I know if  I call one them they will be there in a hurry. With no questions asked when the world is against me i know they are always by myside what people may think or say. Without my friends I would a shadow in the dark. But they are my light in the sky. Without my friends i would be the lone fish in the sea and with my friends we are a school of fishes. I love my friends and i know they love me. I know sometimes we dont see eye to eye but that only makes us stronger. Are fights makes us closer but against the world we are unstoppable. They are the light at the end of ever tunnel .. they are the sun behind the cloubs. I love my friends

Loving the snow

As the snow falls and stick to the ground and cover the onces black street to a white pillow. As the news Post schools are close and all the kids get to sleep in. Waking up to a nice breakfast and some hot coco with marshmellows. As the snow falls and the kids watch from the window. Parents say go out and play as the rush up stair to get warm. Once out there free is everywhere heaven on earth with angels in the snow, walking , talking snowman and the cold winter wonderland. Snow ball fights are started and seeing who can make the bigs fort . As the day draws to and end and the sun begin to set as mother call their  childern with hot coco ready and stories to tell. A fun full day of snow. I love my snow days

Hurt

Words cant explain how I feel right now. My heart was ripped out of my chest and step on and shot. My soul was ripped out of my body.  I feel like a empty vestus of nothingness. I just dont understand what I do to feel this way. I try soo hard not to let it get to me but it just seem to circle around my mind all day. It was my birthday I shouldnt have to feel this way. I laugh to hide my pain and to deepen my sorrow and dorment my hurt. I though the bond we had was way deeper then the outter veiws. I love him and i know sometimes it seem lke I dont but I do. I guess its on of those lesson while learned. As my tears drop they form a river

Its my bday

Im soo happy i have noo idea what im going to do ... but  I just have this feeling that day today is going to be a drag ctfu. I really do need some more friedns ctfu. But Im 22 years old with a cute babyface, who cant not love this face. Ok im feeling myself a lil too much

2011

So its finally 2011, Cuz lord knows that 2010 was based around pain , sorrow and drama. But not all 2010 was bad. But I really looking forward to this year. 2011 is going to bring new places and new friendship and maybe even love for some of us. But the changes that going to happen to me. Im not sick of being the nice one and the one that people walk all other of. THAT SHITS GOING TO CHANGE NOW!!!! and im sick of letting simple minded people get to me and get under my skin. EWWW I am a optimistic person and i want my friends to be as well. I dont want that neagtive ora around me. I like to smile and I'm going to smile until the day i bite the dust.  Maybe loss a lil weight  and get in shape for the Cali boyz. Soo this year is not going to bring dreams and hopes becuz they were alrd set and stone before this year. This year Im  focusing on a NEW ME!!!! and I think im going to love it

Soul mates

A soul mate,
It is said that a soulmate is the other half God has created for you
That we were all built in two but its up to us to find them.
Someone that share the same mind and heart as you
Where our lungs breath as one and not as four
 A soul is said to be the principle of life, feeling, thought
So a Soul mate is the principle of two lives becoming one and  were feeling are shared and understood.
Where a thought is just a thought and words are spoke without opening their mouths.
Where the twink in each other eyes shine as bright as the sun in the morning dew.
Where the flames burns internally and never dies.
A love so strong not even millons of people can pull us a part.
Where their eyes are fixated on each other and not the world
Where there ears are use to listen to each other.
When ones back is against the wall the  other is there to push them forward.
I thank God for creating me a Soul mate.
At this moment I dont know who he is and where hes at but I kno hes out there waiting  just as I am wait for him.
God know when the right timing is.  He created someone out there for everyone regardless of you sexuailty orientations, color, race or ethics background. He wants everyone to feel that joy and passion hes created for all of us. The feeling that we are not a lone and theres someone out there for everyone. Just close your ears and listen to your heart it will never stir you wrong. Well you might have your false hopes thats because you really wasnt listening.

But a Soul mates sound soo great I cant wait to share my life with the one I love unconditionally forever until death do us part under the eyes of GOD